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2008-06-23T14:35:00.000-07:00

I recently finished reading a book titled "Escape", by Caroline Jessop.
In summary, it was about how a brave lady mustered courage to escape the polygamist cult.
Very inspiring and fascinating, and how very thought-provoking.

Sometimes I wish I had the courage to escape.
The pre-requisites of escaping are:
1. There is a serious and significant enough problem
2. There is a place to escape to

In any case, I do not fulfil both pre-requisites.
So the struggle goes on. 3 more years in school, and another 1000 years at home.

And, in the few coming weeks, I thought that everything was falling into place.
But just as quickly, everything fell out of place.
I'm learning virtually nil from work, am constantly on guard for fear of human explosives.
I'm always at the receiving end at home, even though it's none of my business, really.
Plus, my bestfriend's going away.

2008-06-20T01:28:00.000-07:00

Recently, I feel like luck's been on my side.
Because I keep getting offered lifts!
This means bye bye bus fares, hello shopping! (cos I have excess cash for stuffs)
And to all the people who made it possible, eg Chris, Maria's Papa, Allen, Ches, Dad.

Thankew! (:

2008-05-28T14:44:00.000-07:00

It's been 4 days since I started work at MYCG.. And I must say that it has been a joy.
Tiring nonetheless, but fulfilling! (:
Most importantly, I feel (and know for a fact) that my learning curve has been steep and I'm happy about it. I've been doing much market research, but I can't mention much here so as to protect the interests of the company.

The initial part was more tedious than I imagined it to be, but whoever said this would be easy? But, I know that this is something I'm passionate about, so I'm determined to focus, do it, and do it damn freaking well (:

Today, we attended a course on Motor Insurance held by AXA.. And also managed to meet some clients and agents, who formed part of my bosses' contacts. It was quite an eye-opening experience. Walking along Shenton way once again reaffirm my ideas of working in Shenton way when I graduate.

After the course, my boss fetched us for lunch in her spanking new SLK.. *envious*..
Haha.. and she told us to decide between having steak at Dempsey Rd, or Dim Sum at GoodWood Park Hotel.. Haha.. Anyway, we decided that she should call the shots (since she was going to be paying), so we ended up with the latter. Still good anyway, I regret not eating much of Dim Sum in HK last week!

So.. it's been quite a fulfilling work experience by far, and as I know that the next 2 months spent here will be very enlightening and satisfying. Let's hope it stays this way (:

I'm waiting for Chris to come by to fetch me from holland v, but he says he's going to be late. rawr.

2008-05-20T21:42:00.000-07:00

Whenever my dad goes overseas, either my sis or I will bunk in with my mom.
This time around, my sis's away in Manchester, so naturally I got the chance to sleep with her.
With a part of me re-living my childhood, and the other part of me as an adult, with a strong desire to fend for and protect this person who has given me life.

Just last night, I got into bed slightly after midnight, when I was done chatting on msn and facebook-ing. While tucking in, I realised how much my mom has aged. Sheer moonlight landed on her face, reflecting only random visible parts of her face. But even those couldn't hide the fact that my mom has aged. Quite a fair bit.
And, I felt guilty because I had a part to play.

Sometimes, I feel guilty about not helping around the house. It's not so much of being lazy and genuinely wanting to be a couch potato.
But I'm a known procrastinator, while my mom's the direct opposite.
So clashes are expected, and very common indeed.
I know my mom's love language is predominantly 'acts of service', in particular, housework..
I feel like there's a big part of me wanting to give, to show how much I love her, but the inertia is so great, it makes showing affection far beyond easy.

Last night, I ended up falling asleep thinking about how life would be like when my mom is no longer around.
And the thought scares me.
Many a times, for the things that we assume to be perpetually around, we take for granted.
Be it parents, siblings or bestfriends.
Because we assume they'll never leave us, that's why it hits us doubly hard when they finally do.
That's why their departure is always painful.
Because we take them for granted.

And, all these years, as much as I wish not to admit, I am guilty of taking my mom for granted.
For the dirty plates I refuse to wash, and filthy clothes that I occasionally fling around my room, and my rabbit's pent that has grown smelly but choose to ignore.
My mom has silently kept after me.
I'm aware, but I accept such acts of service, because I took it for granted.

So today, I decided to change.
Because, some thing won't be around forever.
And I wanna treasure her while I still have the chance to.
For a start, I mopped the floor and washed all the dirty dishes today.
It's not a great achievement, but at least I started.

2008-05-10T23:23:00.000-07:00

Today spells the ends of my Sem 2 final exams!
(which probably is the last exam in the WHOLE of Singapore)
*Cheers* *Cheers* *Cheers*

For some reasons, all feels too surreal.
Exams seem to have taken over my life,
and for that good one month,
my sole goal was to work towards exemplary results.
If anything, it felt like exams were never going to end.

Now that it finally has...
Where do I go from here?
and what do I do?

P/s: Darwin, Happy Birthday to youu! (:

2008-04-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

I thought that if I worked at it, then all my effort could be translated into success.
Religiously attended all lessons.
Diligently completed tutorials.
So there are no obvious reasons for not doing well.
Hardwork = Good results?

I'm utterly defeated.
One down, 4 to go.

2008-04-23T11:13:00.000-07:00

Inspired by maria's blog entry.
I've been thinking hard about making money, too.
Not so much of striking it rich, but more of sustaining a constant level of high income.
And this equates to starting my own business.
I'm considering opening a Bakery (tapping on my mama's expertise), or maybe an online business. But, that's only what I have in mind. It certainly takes more than mere ideas to actualise such thoughts.

As it is, I'm currently preparing for my Sem 2 Final Examinations.
After which I will be officially declared a Year 2 Student! *beams*
I have come a long way.
Sometimes I look at my tuition kid (aka PangSai Face, who is in Primary 6 this year) and I feel abit sad for her, because she's merely into the intial phases of the education system.
What lies ahead are many major exams, countless exams, and the confusion phase that occurs during puberty. The good thing is, she doesn't know! So, ignorance can be bliss.

Anyway, I'm back to studying. Hopefully, a random part of my Management Sci module, or even my Biz Law module can inspire me to strike it rich in some unexplored areas (:
You know, it doesnt hurt to keep dreaming (:

2008-04-21T22:59:00.000-07:00

I've been doing much reading up about some current world affairs.
(Yes, apart from my modular curriculum, which im supposed to be studying)
So.. the current topic of interest: The Polygamist (Mormon) Cult in Texas.

Anyway, this entire raid was triggered by an anonymous 16-year old girl, who is a member of the cult. She had rung up a help-line and told them that her 50-year old husband (no typo) had continuously raped and whacked her. And, mind you, this teenager is 8-weeks pregnant and was already a mother of one. Gosh, she must have been married when she was... 13 or something? In any case, she was that man's 17th wife. Don't be shocked yet. The record is 33. *shivers*

The videos I watched contained the testimonies of runaway cult members, who inform (to the awe of many) that once a girl hits puberty, her name is written in the "Joy Book" (how ironic) and is considered fit for marriage. And, the interestingly morbid part is that these girls are informed about 15mins to 1hr before they get "married" off, and to whom they are marrying to.
And, this happens all so quickly that there aren't any wedding dresses to speak off, because in technical terms (and in accordance to the US Law), these young girls are merely "spiritual brides".

In any case, the call triggered an emergency raid at the ranch (where they live and breed). About 400 children have been taken into custody by the nation, and DNA tests are run to ensure incest doesn't exist (though, I think, I most certainly will exist). And, trials are going on due to the controversy over who (Nation vs Parents) should obtain the custody of these children.

The people of this cult engage in polygamy primarily because they believe that this is the way to heaven, for both males and females alike, though I suspect that the males enjoy it more (d-uh!). And because of this, young males get sent out of the community when they are of age because there aren't sufficient females to go around.. And, this is causing much controversy in US because firstly, polygamy is against the law. And most importantly, due to the fact that only first wives are registered wives, the 2nd wives and beyond are declared in the official records as single mothers. Technically (and rightfully) speaking, they live off the welfare system. So, am I right to say that part of the taxpayers' monies are going (and have gone) into supporting polygamy? What a scam!

How can any mother condone such actions performed on their young daughters? How can anyone participate in such inhumane activites? How can any one exist in the same air as another who literally shares (and bed) your spouse?

I think they can. Because they do not know better.

2008-04-20T08:34:00.000-07:00

We met andre and gab for a nice dinner at Pasta Mania yesterday night.
The feeling of meeting old friends perk me up, especially when my "old friends" aren't even that old yet, considering that we knew one another when we were 13. Lols.
And this meeting I'm talking about, is a meeting after a good 5 years, during which we sustained only on fleeting and unfrequent chat conversations.

I will start by admitting that I'm shocked by the drastic changes. In a good way, except that I didn't see it coming at all.
The 2 boys whom I used to recognise to be potential "ultimate crapper" prize winners have emerged as (may i mention, fine) young men, with budding inspirations and big dreams.
Their plans for now and for what holds ahead are impressive, indeed.
And that puts me to shame because I, if ever, have never given much thought to my plans for the future.
I do not rule out working in a Bank, but the payoffs are minimal, and given the ongoing inflation, it will be neglible in due course.
Well, it really is time to think bigger...

And I realised that time really changes people.. Their behaviour, aspirations and life goals..
But some things, they never ever do change.

2008-04-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

Dumbdumb that stupid rain.
Spoiled my plans to swim in the morning.
Anyway, I suspect that my body's developing an allergy towards chlorine.
Like, seriously.
I'm getting those red specks all over, like random bug bites.
Gross.
Okay, McGriddles, here i comeeeeeeeeeeee.

2008-04-13T13:57:00.000-07:00

TOP 10 PICK-UP LINES:

1.Tell me something, girl. Did it hurt when you fell out of heaven?

2.Girl are you tired, cuz youve been running through my mind all day...

3.You Dropped something , "My jaw"

4.I lost my number. Can I have yours?

5.Is there an airport nearby or is that just my heart taking off?

6.Want to come see my hard drive? I promise it isn't 3.5 inches and it ain't floppy.

7.I'm sorry, were you talking to me? (No.) Well then, please start (:

8.Your daddy must have been a baker, because you've got a nice set of buns.

9.Apart from being sexy, what do you do for a living?

10.If I were a stop light, I'd turn red everytime you passed by, just so I could stare at you a bit longer.

My personal favourite:
Me without you is like a nerd without braces, A shoe without laces, aSentenceWithoutSpaces.

Hahaha.. Hope u enjoyed! (:

2008-04-11T22:23:00.000-07:00

My bedroom clock ticked past 10.00pm.
Downstairs, frenzied activites are still going on.
Spading of sand and rocks, laying of bricks.
Laboriously engaging in back-breaking work are the foreign workers,
otherwise fondly known to many as the "Banglahs".

I must admit that I've never been a great fan of theirs.
Particularly because of the potential congestion they contribute to,
coupled with social security issues.
Casting nationality, occupation and status to the winds,
when stripped bare (not literally, of course),
they are very much like us.
Human.
My wish for tonight is for their supervisors to realise that it's been a long day and it really is time for a break, before work resumes again tomorrow.

2008-04-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

The foo (fool, literally) behind us started jumping hyperactively, pointing to SMU with a feigned sense of recognition, as if afraid that nobody knew she studied there.

At that moment, she drifted off.
And I knew perfectly where she drifted off to.
That pained look on her face had a tinge of other mixtures of emotions tonight.
Pain, compounded with frustration, self-accusation and regret.
It's not the first time I've seen it, and I'm sure it won't be the last.
Then she smiles, as a cover-up for her subconscious reaction.
But beneath that smile, that pain never fades away.
It just keeps questioning.

Dear friend,
Everyone's unique in their own ways,
and what constitutes a successful person isn't just by the level of tertiary education, and the reputation of that instituition.
No route is a path wrongly taken, as long as taking this path has allowed you to learn something, and nurtured you as a person.
No problem is an issue serious enough for you to continuously bask in frustration and regret.
No one deserves to feel this way, especially you.
Keep in mind that if God has taken you to it, He will take you through it.
Trust in Him.
And, trust in me ((:

2008-04-09T18:28:00.000-07:00

My pop-up read: "One new mail from Samuel Tang"
And my eyes lit up, with much surpise (:
It's been a long time since I last heard from my penpal in faraway HK.

Amongst all the changes taking place,
sometimes it's really comforting to hear from old friends.
It makes me feel, just for that couple of minutes, that I'm allowed to indulge in something that is a routine part of my life.

That is, before I get sucked back into the whirlpool of changes again.

P/s: Maria tan, i love your new blogskin. Esp that part with my face!

2008-04-08T17:57:00.000-07:00

I ran into maro's mom at the stadium today.
She took more than a few moments to recall who I was, but it was nice seeing her nonetheless (:

It felt grrrreat to be running in the stadium again.
The track, the spectator stand, the barren field.
Very nostalgic, indeed.
If anything, it certainly brought back fond memories from 6 years back,
when I was still training competitively for tennis (:
Those were the days, when life was a heap of fun, and troubles were few and far between.

Lols. I also randomly ran into Mark in school, and he gave me a lift home.
Dude, if ur seeing this, many thanks! (:

P/s: Bestie, I'm keeping you in my prayers.. May you have speedy recovery..

2008-04-07T20:49:00.000-07:00

I have some impression of the cleaning uncle from next block.
Just fleetingly.
And today, he jumped to his death.

He dropped from 4 storeys above, frm the top of the multi-storey carpark.
During the wee hours, just less than 8metres from where I was,
still cocooned in my warm bed, seeking respite in dreamland.

Even though I never had any form of contact with him,
nor was he an accquaintance.
It's just saddening that a physical being, with real flesh and blood, will cease to exist from this day on.
May you rest in peace...

2008-04-06T17:37:00.000-07:00

I had a good time teaching Krista today.
We started on Speed a couple of days ago, and moved on to Circles today.
The feeling of recollection was quite fun, and not forgetting to mention, nostalgic indeed.

And I also introduced her to a couple of good books and films I've been in contact with of late.
She seems to share my taste for good books, which I figured is a pretty good start (:
So I've decided that I'll give her one of my favourite books as prsent.

On my way home, I was thinking about what life away from home will be like.
Being away from my comfort zone, and the place I've called home for the past 2 decades.

It could be for exchange, internships, or eventually, to contruct a home to call your own.
I wonder how it feels like to be released from the constant naggings, to be partially/ fully financially independent, and to be accountable for personal well-being.
I know where my apprehensions stem from, but I think it's high time to step out and step up.

2008-04-06T06:32:00.000-07:00

My rrrrrrrroom (:

2008-04-05T12:19:00.000-07:00

I dislike the way you are clawing your way back to my life.
Especially when you were the one who closed the door on me right at the start.

The key to that door is now lost.

2008-04-04T08:49:00.000-07:00

Years ago, I was complaining to my sis about a random group mate I had.
And she said something to me that I thought made (and still does make) sense to me.

This was what she said:
From the people who are nice, you learn how exactly to exude that same kind of goodness.
But, from the people who are less desirable, you simply learn how not to be like them.

And in this instance, girl, I'm learning how not to be like you.

My sis is coming back from Copenhagen tmr! (:
For all the things I have lined up for the weekend, you can't blame me for getting excited!

2008-04-03T23:50:00.000-07:00

I treated Maria to a korean steamboat buffet today, at Excelsior Hotel.
We has our fair share of beef, chicken, pork and many, many kimchiiisss... ((:

Owing to the elasticities of our stomachs, we decided to have some desserts at Menotti @Raffles Place, which has 50% for all sweet indulgences after 10pm.
Which, I must admit, is a temptation I never fail to succumb to.

So there we were, at 940, quietly sipping our diet cokes...
Waiting patiently for that 20mins to pass, but pretending to be getting comfortable with the small chat we were having over the sodas.

As we have it, we were served by a friendly waitor, Mr. L.
20mins seemed too long, so Maria decided to have a frappe to go along.

Me: "Could we have a passion fruit flavoured frappe?"
Mr. L diligently scribbles my order down.
Indecisive as ever, I took a second look at the menu.
Me (again): "Erm.. Is mango nicer or passion fruit, u think?"
I asked with genuine doubt, then looking up to an astonished look on Mr. L's face.
Mr. L: "Hmm.. I usually prefer Mango."
Me: "I'll have a mango then, sorry for the change," I apologised sheepishly.
He flashed me a grin, and got down to business.

Maria then whispered something in my ear, which made me hyperventilate for a few seconds due to continuous laughter.
"For him to have a preference over mango, he must have secretly drank a dozen cups of mango frappes back there." Lols.

At 9.58pm, we decided to try our luck with the indulgences.
Me: "Hey, could we place our orders for cakes?"
Mr. L: "Sure... What would you like?"
I hesitate for a moment.
I knew exactly what I wanted, but I wasn't sure if the price it bore was the price I was willing to pay.
Me: "Erm.. I would like those with 50% off after 10pm."
My cheeks flushed in embarrassment.
Mr. L: "Ohh... you are waiting for the cakes?"
He grins again. "I'll come by shortly after 10pm."

Which he did, and Maria and I managed to get our mini cakes at half price.

When we left Menotti, it was still pretty early, so we decided to travel home by the bus way. The long way, so that we could chat a bit.
Maria decided to walk me home, and just as we were at the junction, my mind registered a familiar shadow. Not all that familiar, but a budding familiarity.
That shadow came closer and our shoulders brushed past.
On closer look, I saw that guy staring right back at me, as if trying to recall a part of his memory.
The same wave of familiarity struck me. It was Mr. L!
Fancy such a coincidence, really.

Given that, Maria and I laughed our whole way home.
So Mr. L, nice knowing that you're a fellow Serangoon-er, too! ((:

2008-04-02T17:40:00.000-07:00

You started with a speck.

But you are transforming into a colossal pain in the ass.

Just why won't you go away?

2008-03-31T20:54:00.000-07:00

The first time a mosquito sees that big purple zapper light, it looks like God.

The second time, he runs in the opposite direction.

But for me, I just never learn my lesson.

Because the feeling of getting zapped beats solitude.

2008-03-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

My friends say that I smell.
Not a bad smell. A "Vanessa" smell.

Amanda came out of the connecting toilet to Kathleen's room.
Her eyeballs darted towards where I was sitting.
"Ohh.. the toilet smelt like you!", she said.
Kelly: "Yeah, my toilet has the "Vanessa" smell now." lol.

For the rest of the day, I found myself sniffing my entire body.
But that smell, is something I have yet to identify.
If you smell me next time, do let me know. lols.

2008-03-29T00:21:00.000-07:00

A happy girl. An upturned smile.
An endless radiation of warmth that embodies her entire being.

She comes across as a simple girl who has nothing much to speak of, in her possession.
But in actual fact, she has everything.
Self-sufficient, contented, and comfortable.
Epitome of life.

Sometimes, one doesn't have to be in possession of material things to be termed a happy lady.
It only takes some effort to lower our benchmarks, look beyond materialism, and start appreciating our surroundings.
Only then can we start making sense of our lives, and how little it takes to be genuinely happy.

2008-03-28T15:54:00.000-07:00

Driven by loneliness, feeling of rejection, or just the notion of wanting to fit in.
People look for love in the wrong places.
Love, it still is, nontheless..
But this love is short-lived, impure, and contains an unthinkable agenda.

This love judges people, and quantifies their souls and faces.
This love doesn't look beyond the facade and never explores the heart.
This love commences and ends at the surface, where it dwells for the entire duration.

Please give emo another name, because it's been used a time too many...

2008-03-26T18:16:00.000-07:00

It's during times like now that I have time to sit back and think...
About the people I have neglected over this span of time.
About how I have placed emphasis on everything else besides my family.
About how I have belittled the importance of academic performances.

The things that I deemed of paramount importance were actually negligible, in comparison to the bigger picture...
It's infuriating how I allowed myself to succumb to it time and again.
Even after having experienced it twice, and having realised the true colours of 2 different people who hid behind the same facade of niceness.
Even after being hurt twice.
I still caved in.

2008-02-25T23:02:00.000-08:00

Wells.
I met maria for dinner at S-11 a couple of nights ago and I happened to share one of my very interesting stories. About Dang Kees. (for Hokkien illiterates, Dang Kee= chinese mediums)

I'm sure you know what mediums do. They basically provide their bodies for possession by Godly spirits, during which they will go into some kind of trance. I used not to believe it. But trust me, seeing is believing. Not to mention that the trauma I went through woke me up in the middle of my unpeaceful sleep for 3 consecutive nights follwing that incident.

Haha. But the medium was freaking accurate in recounting all my life experience this life time. Eg. how many times I moved house, how many ex bfs I had (and his age and zodiac), current crushes, my academic performances etc. Just a list a few.
It's scarily accurate.

Anyway that got maria interested. And her mama too. Haha.. I'm hoping jesus doesn't mark me down for that one.

I went shopping with my mom and sis in Orchard yesterday. I've always been an avid shopper, and I will never say NO to retail therapy.
But. Yesterday's shopping trip with both the oldies bored me to death.
I say Forever 21! Cotton-on! Topshop!
They say Gucci! Prada! Chanel!
Call this age gap, and you cannot be more right.
Haha... I don't see much point in indulging in 2000k bags.
Apart from the looks of awe and admiration from passers-by who know and prolly indulge in such expensive habits.

Haha. Maybe that's what mommies do. Buy expensive bags.
Let's hope I never follow in their footsteps. Because I know that my taitai dream, is drifting further and further away from me.

2008-02-17T00:24:00.000-08:00

CNY came and went... And every year, I'm thankful for CNY.
It's not just about the ang pow and money okay.
I get to meet up with my family, relatives and friends, and in this year's case, for 4 days in a row!
I said my fair share of hellos, and goodbyes as well.
Made me realised how strong human ties can be, and also the fragility of human life.

Anyway, on a happier note.
I had a sleepover in my bestie's home yesterday!
(not the most appropriate thing to do 2 weeks before the exams, i know. whatever.)
We did the most retarded things, which I shall not elaborate further.
We shared many new secrets, especially those of my 'husband'.
And sorry to disappoint, but my husband's identity will not be revealed. HAHA.

Then as usual, we stayed up late and woke up late. Real late.
Maria told her mom we had kway chap for breakfast. A breakfast at 2pm.
Do u see the irony of it all? Cos I do and am perplexed how anyone can commence their day at 2pm. Lols.

Because it was Maria's birthday, her mom planned a mini celebration for her over dinner!
We had a feast and the food was great! (:
I love her ah-ma! So cute!

Anyway, after dinner we met Ches and Jon for a drink at Alley Bar. I tell you, if anything, that place is definitely saving on electricity. Cos it was freaking dark inside.
The big boy was emo-ing, and the ambience only made things worse.
I went home in a cabriolet.
And did I mention, I love the sensation of having the 1am wind blowing on my face and through my hair. I gave up looking glam, for that short but enjoyable ride home.

2008-02-05T10:33:00.000-08:00

Today spells the end of school for me, until after CNY!
I cannot explain how glad I am that our FNA lecture was cancelled (:

I spent the earlier part of my day out in AMK with mommy, looking around for CNY decorations and pigging out on snack samples.
My mom amuses me big time.

She approaches the stall, looking totally interested in buying some tarts, then politely engages in a lively conversation with the salesperson, and then take quick and multiple bites of whatever samples they have to offer. then walk away.
We had Pepper Lunch for lunch, and she loves it there! I forsee many future meals there.

After that I met my bestie in town for our usual shopping trip.
Inpromptu, as usual. But fun, nevertheless.
I realised that genuine fun has to come from within, unplanned and without prompting.
And it can only be achieved when you stop judging each other,
appreciate each other's shortcomings and truly want the best for each other.

Many a times, we are afraid to reveal who we really are because we are afraid of being judged.
But when you can let go of whatever reputation (or image) u have at hand, say what you really feel, do what you deem fit, laugh like there's no tomorrow....
That's when you know how I feel when I'm with my bestie.

Thanks for everything, babe.
For all else, u can count on me (:

And, thank you for the card.

2008-01-31T00:22:00.000-08:00

today's quite a special day for me.
it wasn't the most fun or eventful day, but special nevertheless (:

today i stepped out of my comfort zone, and opened my eyes to what was blind to me for the past 6 mths in school.
i've grown so used to consistently having friends around me that being alone seems so foreign now.
call me a social animal, i will not refute u.

being alone has its benefits too.
i made 3 new friends today.
caught up with 1 primary school classmate, and then another 1 secondary school classmate. all in a span of 3 hours, with little effort required.

i guess that sometimes we do take the people around us for granted.
we assume that they'll always be there, but we have no idea how wrong we are.
it takes less than a split second to wave at someone, less than a minute to break into a smile and ask "how are you?".
to show that you care, that they are still on your mind, and that they (still) mean something to you.

2008-01-23T19:09:00.000-08:00

I thought that if I didn't say it aloud or tell it to anyone,
then it wouldn't be real.
But I realised that keeping it within was the most painful thing to do.
Reality slapped me in the face more than once but I chose to close my eyes.

Pretending that I wasn't affected,
and portraying a look of aloofness to the ignorant.
This isn't me.

And I'm now casting you to the winds.
You have long lost your appeal
because you've had one too many.

2008-01-22T07:16:00.000-08:00

when school gets boring, all you need is a few good friends, and a random shopping trip to the supermarket to liven up the spirit in the air.

it could be tapioca chips, or slabs of honey baked ham, or triple choc cereal that you are buying.
nothing really matters more than the company cos you know that you've found good friends when you are able to enjoy their quiet company.

and the last thing you need is for an emasculated male to come around,
breaking down the wall of defence you have built around your heart.

2008-01-21T02:42:00.000-08:00

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open

and I Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

This song, i love (:

quit playing on my childhood inferiority.

2008-01-18T17:46:00.000-08:00

Those nice girly late night talks came to a halt when my sis stumbled upon her new job.

She was perpetually flying during every of my waking moments, while I was still back on earth, realistic and practical as ever.

And so we've missed out on each other's lives;

the new guy on the block?

the new bitachh in town?

the most IN lipstick colour?

the most versatile heels for this season?

And we've found ourselves adapting to and accomodating each other.

Random spurts of independence causes her to take her privacy for granted. It's not her fault, really.

My perpetual need for the computer for school work sees us fighting over our home computer. It's not my fault, really, and she knows.

Yesterday was a day of enlightenment. Her trip back from Cairo allowed her 2 days in Singapore and that night, our girly talk resumed.

And she provided me with new insights about many things and people around me. The things she said were so, so right. It's amazing.

I'm always thought myself to be quite a thinker, but my sister has broken my record this time.

And I guess that new jobs really change people. In this instance, for the better.

And because somethings never ever change. Like my love for my sister (:

2008-01-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

My birthday was definitely a well-spent one.
I'm thankful for all my friends and family who took the effort to remember my birthday.
And for running that extra mile for me by planning and being physically present at my surprise birthday party.
My heart-felt appreciation goes out specially to my sister, Maria, Amanda, Cun Zheng, Jonny and Mark. (: thanks for everything!

Firstly, to my sis who dotes on me like crazy. Thanks for organising the party and drafting the guest list. Even though you kind of gave it away at the start, but I still appreciate it! ((: And most importantly, thanks for your generosity towards my friends. I don't think I can find a better sister anywhere else, really.

To Maria, who was totally in cahoots with my sister about the surprise party. Many thanks too, bestie! Haha.. It's been nice knowing you since P1 and I cannot explain how glad and/or greatful for a friend like you. Our friendship is going strong, and I like it that way. Thanks for getting me the Chanel eyeliner that I've been wanting to get since forever! And it's the correct colour, btw! Haha.. I love it and I'm going to keep using it (:

To Amanda, who was ALSO in cahoots about the surprise party. Thanks for keeping the secret so well, until the last minute. The feeling of apprehension almost killed me, but thinking back, it was really fun! Haha.. I'm really glad that I've found a friend in you. Going to school and attending lectures is boring as ever, but you never fail to serve as a silver lining, in every step of the way (: I just wanted to know that it's a nice feeling having you around!

To Chris, who took the extra effort to find his way to my house just to deliver the present to me. Haha.. thanks for your special gift! I didn't quite know how to react, but I appreciate all the effort you went through to get me a present. I really like it very much (: Exploring T3 in my FBTs in the wee hours is definitely a novelty for me and only someone like you can think up such an idea. Haha.

To Hans (aka Tallie), who gave me a very pleasant surprise in school. Haha.. Even though we didn't manage to have lunch in the end (cos u asked so late), I appreciate how you took the effort to wait till my class ended so that you could meet me to pass me my present. And it's a personalised present! Haha.. thanks alot. Btw, isit gel inside? Haha..

To David, who made cookies for me with my name on it! Hahah.. I really have many doubts about your culinary skills, but since it's my birthday I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt! Many thanks for the 7 special cookies! (:

To Jiang, who remembered my birthday and gave me your Financial Acct (FNA) textbook as a present. Haha.. you saved me almost 50 bucks! Haha.. I assure you that the present will be utilised to its fullest potential. And I hope I get an A for FNA, too! (:

To Kelly, who treated me to dim sum in Chinatown! Hahah.. It was nice shopping with you and amanda, even though you guys bought more stuffs than I did. Haha.. so much for the Serena Vanderwoodsen style, seriously. Haha.. Ehh I really love that prawn + scallop + seaweed thing. We shall go and eat again okay.

2008-01-04T00:25:00.000-08:00

I'm here to clear some cobwebs which have accumulated over the year. My last entry says 26 Nov 2006. Which means I haven't been here for a little more than a year. Wow.
And may I apologise for mild commitment phobia.

I invited this brand new year eating salmon pizza at Modesto's. With my childhood and teenhood friends. It wasn't the most fun or happening thing to be doing when the clock struck 12, but counting down with Ches, Maria and Jonny gave me a very heart-warming and comfortable feeling (:

As part of my New Year's resolution, I decided to go to the GP to get my very extremely annoying wart removed. Being a procrastinator, I must applaud myself for such efforts. But on hindsight, it wasn't such an intelligent idea afterall. The surgery left me limping during the New Year's Eve party. Chester offered to piggyback me, but I think if i consented he would prolly be the next person to go into surgery. Haha. But he did carry my clutch eventually. Which is a much much lighter load to bear, I'm sure.

All hopes for 2008 to be a year full of new hopes, dreams and happy times.
And a higher CAP! ((:

2008-01-03T23:13:00.000-08:00

A beautiful Saturday night...

And I spent by trapping myself at home, finalising my report.

If it was any fun at all, it was cos malia did it with me!

I dragged her into it. HAHA.

Anyway, BESTIE, I appreciate it okay! I hope that the 30% u put it will boost that grade (:

2006-11-26T00:53:00.000-08:00

I was just browsing through the 4/2 blog that constance recently advised me to visit.
And it sort of reconnected me to the life I lived 2 years back, and the circle of friends back in IJ.

I was randomly blog browsing, and I found constance's blog especially captivating. I totally agree with your friend; cons, u should write a book sometime. For some very strange and unknown reasons, reading her blog made me very emotional.

I feel like I've been detached from the lives of these people whom I call my friends for far too long. Too long for comfort. And I really hate myself for that.

Why don't your eyes have any room for me?

2006-11-18T10:40:00.000-08:00

A's have finally come to an official end for me!:)
I think in some sense I feel quite relieved.
Like I no longer have to take naps and wake up feeling guilty. And I no longer have to pretend like the TYS is my favourite book.

But I still feel very burdened, but I'm not sure by what.
I think that the end of something only means the start of another.

2006-11-09T18:31:00.000-08:00

There's officially 8 days to the end of exams.
But there are still Econs and Chem papers next week.
Hope the papers won't be killers!
Judging from how Chem P3 was, I kinda anticipate either Chem P1 or P2 or both to be killers.
Hope Cambrige will decide to shower us with leniency.
Finished with Maths papers today, and I thought that the disparities between P1 and P2 is too great for comfort. Not that it's a bad thing, but I wish the papers were normal-er. Haha.

2006-10-31T21:22:00.000-08:00

Trick or Treats!
Anyway, Happy Halloween, for whoever still has the mood to celebrate :)

As the offical countdown will have it, there's strictly 17 days left to the end of A'Levels.n

The mere thought of freedom excites every single molecule in my body.
To all my peers, study hard! :)

2006-10-19T12:46:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe he did this to me...

2006-10-16T21:56:00.000-07:00

We had a GP Mock Practise in the afternoon in school today.
It was on blogging, and was extremely subjective, not to mention boring and unworthy of time.

And TKS was going through some answers after we were done and we chanced upon one of the words in the vocab section, specifically "belligerent", which she immediately linked to "belicose", which she specifically instructed my class to define cos' she mentioned it in tutorials before.
Haha...
Admist the frenzy, I heard a guy from behind say...
"Ah.. Belicose.. means not far away loh..."
Hahah... And I laughed throughout the rest of the practise.
This has got to be the best joke of the year.

Disclaimer: Belicose- behaving in a way that is likely to start an argument or fight.

2006-10-13T20:31:00.000-07:00

I must admit that I've never been very emotionally attached to NY, neither do I ever so often sing praises of this place which I've been calling school for the past 2 years.
Today is Graduation Day, spelling the end of my schooling life as a uniform-wearing juvenile.
And I must admit that I've been feeling extremely depressed about school ending.
It's prolly not so much about missing lectures and tutorials, which are everyday chores I can live well without.

If anything, I'm going to miss those after-break gossips, catching glimpses of eye candies who have no idea who I am, randomly bursting out in class, speaking in codes to PRC babes who seem to share the perfect understanding of the connotions beyond codes...
I'm already starting to miss all of these already.

It's hard to believe how I've developed this strange attachment towards NY.
I say with much contempt how my school system brings about the downfall of her students, and openly voice and tactlessly criticise whatever school issues I deem unfit.
But only to realise that beneath it all, I seem to have developed a soft spot for NY- or maybe just the crowd at NY; the crowd who have moulded my 2 years of college life to be fulfilling, no lack of difficult situations and obstacles, but nonetheless worthwhile.

I do not deny having some regrets, like wishing I had the oppotunity to speak to my eye-candies but it's an irrational reason, so whatever. Eye-candies aren't supposed to know that they are being idolised anyway =x

For those reading my blog, be it classmates or schoolmates or accquaintance in school...
I'd like to wholeheartedly thank each and everyone of you for leaving trails of footsteps in my 2-year long journey in NY. You guys have contributed, directly and indirectly to my life experiences, and I thank you for that :)

2006-09-24T21:39:00.000-07:00

My Dad's middle name has got to be Miser, or anything along that line, cos' I can't think of any other name more apt than that.

I never shared this with anyone but I've always been secretly wishing to have a Dad like Marian's. Now more than ever, I think Uncle Denise is an ideal Dad to have. Of course, we can't choose our dad (if only we could!), but no one said anything about anything wrong with dreaming about ideal Dads.

I've always admired how Uncle Denise speaks to Marian and Frances, his eyes exuding much love, his voice caring yet stern. He's hardly stingy with words of encouragement. He's always willing to go that extra mile to make people feel comfortable, even if it means driving across half of Singapore to send me home safely.

Speaking of it makes me feel excited about the X'mas party Marian holds at her house every year. I really like her family. And I hope Vivenne comes back by then!

2006-09-22T23:19:00.000-07:00

Exams have finally come to an end!
And... there's officially 1 month ++ to the start of A'Levels.

I'm kind of looking forward to A's, possibly after A's, so that I may start ticking off my post-A's agenda. Lalalala~

Was freed from exams' clutches last Monday and wasting no time, I was off on an ultimate shopping spree which eventually whipped 150 bucks off me, leaving me more emotionally sane but financially insane.
Whoever said retail therapy works wonders, bullshit.

Here's what snatched me of my 150 bucks;
I bought a red off-shoulder top frm Topshop, a round-collared, puffy-sleeved polo from Zara, a pair of brown berms from Yin&Yang (70% off!), a pair of mini flower-patterned heels from this Jap shoe shop and a straw bag with a pretty flower attached to it! :)

Yeah, I think I might have to live of stale bread until the end of the month. Haha.
But I guess my fat reserves should be able to last me until then.
Btw, Chester's out of Army, coolios!

2006-09-19T23:13:00.000-07:00

well-remembered teen-hood companies. hah.
(photo by courtesy of darwin :)

2006-09-16T08:42:00.000-07:00

Exams are coming to an end.
Last paper on Monday, CMaths2.
I guess I feel a tat more different from what I had expected to feel.
Yeah.
Can't wait for exams to end.
But maybe not.
Cos that spells the start of A's.

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was Cadbury?

2006-09-06T22:13:00.000-07:00

NUMBNESS....
Feeling alike, anyone?

2006-09-03T06:39:00.001-07:00

He... (to be continued)

2006-08-31T17:15:00.000-07:00

Im currently taking a short break from maths...
Nothing numbs the brain more than maths, seriously.
Anyway...
Happy Teachers' Day
to all teachers!

Well, I must admit that I was mildly disappointed by how everything turned out today.
It's not any personal accusation, but just a general feeling.
The concert started off with the 29th emcees making us feel kind of unwelcomed.
But I can understand that, cos' emceeing for the first time is no easy task, and I'm speaking from personal experience.

But you know, I wish some were more poilte. Specifically my direct junior? *cringes
Certainly, you can expect my classmates to be less forgiving.
Anyway, was kind of glad that towards the end, the concert turned out to be a very successful one. I must say that the Jazz band certainly helped to hype and enliven everyone's spirits!

To any 29th SC peeps reading this, just wanna let you guys know that you guys did a good job:) Work on it. Gear up for Orientation1 :)

2006-08-30T20:00:00.000-07:00

Picture this.
My usual puma (bloated) bag was slung over my shoulders, with my maths tys under my arm, my both hands clutching my sweater, leaking watch bottle and my file, hauling along some frozen food my mom had intended me to buy while trying to balance a straw board and some teachers' day flower the guys had bought, pretending none of it was happening as I invited more stares as I walked, and lumbering up a slope so that I may reach home in one piece.

You know, more than ever, I wish I was a shelf.
This is indeed putting my fitness- whatever is left of it, to the ultimate test. Haha.
If anything, it has to be the worse walk home, ever.
Talk about being unglam, this has got to be unglam-ness at its maximum.
Gosh. What have I done.
Sigh.

2006-08-26T17:38:00.000-07:00

[The Way You Look At Me]
(By Christian Bautista)
[To listen, go to my tagboard and scroll down. The file's huge so spare it some time to load:) enjoy!]

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything without a single word

CHORUS
'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still

'Cause, baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel
[Repeat CHORUS]

BRIDGE
I don't know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time

[Repeat CHORUS]
The way you look at me

Amanda got me hooked on this =X.
Haha... but, don't you guys agree tt this is the "THE perfect wedding song"? =)

2006-08-20T14:22:00.000-07:00

When studying at home, I'd usually be distracted by either the TV or my rabbit.
It was a usual Saturday afternoon and taking a random glance, I saw Mom talking to Biskett and and Dad trying to fix the edge of her cage with a decade-old hammer.
A scene of what I deem to be perfect family life.

It was the simplest of simple things in life and yet it brought a genuine smile to my face.
Having a happy family, with crazy parents, a crazier sibling and an undeniably mad rabbit is probably something very fundamental (except the rabbit part), but I've learnt not to take them for granted.
What I experienced was a sudden rush of emotions- happiness, satisfaction and a mild sense of fear; unexplainable but definitely overwhelming.

I guess, it's when one starts living life simple that one learns to discover, realise and cherish the most beautiful things in life.
And, for as long as I lived, it seems that I never took the time to treasure the happiness simplicity brings. But, better now than never?
So, maybe studying for A'Levels has some advantages too.

11 days to Prelims. *screams.

2006-08-19T14:24:00.000-07:00

Hey all!!!

Haha... Yest was quite a fun day :)
Amanda, Melan, Collen, Kaijia and I stayed back in school to study after classes ended.
Haha... We kind of 'escaped' econs consultation cos' we didn't really prepare any questions and most certainly, writing those 3 essays during our pre-prelims on Wed was demoralising and fatigue-inducing.
I mean, everyone needs a break from things, so why can't that thing be econs for now? (Disclaimer: I still like Econs + WeeSee ok! :))

Anyway, it was quite a productive (and hilarious) day for me yesterday.
I managed to complete some Complex No. questions with Yoga's help! :)
And, I must mention this, Yoga is like superb in Maths!!!
I think he prolly started doing maths since he was a foetus or something, though it's hard to imagine how. But, he's that good! Hey Yoga, thanks, thanks, thanks! :)

Then Amanda and I played tennis with the wall for awhile, before going back to do somemore maths and laugh about Melan's new found love.
He's 'the guy next door' (literally!)
Haha... the rest of us had a jolly good time teasing Melan abt it.
And Melan, in effort to defend herself, came up with new phrases of retaliation
eg. "Slap you ar"... "ee.. Pui!!". hahah...
Melan's hilarious.

2006-08-11T14:39:00.000-07:00

最近，生活过得比往常仓促，乏味，缺乏意义。
如果说人接受教育是为了增加知识与生活常识，为了充实生活，那为什么我总觉得我已经渐渐地，在无意中成为知识的奴隶。

这就是所谓的‘现苦后甜’吗?

苦难的日子似无境，对自由的期盼也已成为虚幻的想象。
人说: 屋漏又逢连夜雨- 祸不单行
我有点困惑，也有很多疑问，有更多的心理话要说。
你知道吗?

2006-08-10T10:12:00.000-07:00

One of my better preferred pics of PRC:)
On our way to the CrocoDOG farm, u know?
CrocoDOGs love barking in the sun :)

2006-08-07T23:21:00.000-07:00

Career Seminar @NYJC.
Taken with Jeann and Jenric :)

2006-08-03T23:12:00.000-07:00

Well, I was feeling a bit more free than I normally do, so I figured I should come on to clear some cobwebs here and there :)

Anyway, I received an email from my penpal to say that he got accepted into a HK university!!! Really kinda happy for him, afterall, university is like an ultimate dream for any person taking AL.
Including me.
Though it's going to take me more than just intelligence and hardwork to make my way to NUS.

Well, guess everyone's busy preparing for Sept's prelims.
Stress level compunds by the day and even more so today when the entire cohort received the Prelim Timetable.

Study. Study. Study.
Till then, bye peeps :)

2006-07-25T17:46:00.000-07:00

This has to be the most hilarious image I've seen all week. Haha... I received it through an email. And whoever Peter is, he's gotta be one hell of a funny guy. I thought I was bad in maths, but Peter has certainly topped my chart :)

Anyway, school's been stressful, as always. But I seem to be riding on some momentum for revision, so I guess I still can cope.

And, and... You know, and think HE and HE are so, so adorable! *grins.

Study hard, my friends :)

2006-07-18T16:12:00.000-07:00

Here's my first entry this week.
Well, school's been beyond crazy and that explains.

Anyway, I'm not exactly in the best of mood today.
My little pet hamster, Bearie, passed away last night.
The most difficult part was to see her take her last breath, knowing that nothing much can be done to save her little life cos' her body was already turning cold.
A part of me is just glad that she died a peaceful death, with minimal suffering and struggles.

My sister told me that after seeing so many pet hamsters come and go, one develops a kind of immunity towards death.
I thought I had developed such an immunity too.
But it appears not cos' moments after Bearie died, I locked myself in the bedroom and cried myself silly.
While tears called the shots in that few minutes, scenes of Bearie flashed through my mind.
Scenes of her eating, sleeping, running on her wheel and yanking bits of snacks through my fingers...
Scenes of her that I will never see again.
Thinking about it still brings back a tinge of sadness.

To Bearie:
I hope you know what it means to die.
It means going to a new place to start a new life all over.
It means being freed of all pain and suffering from now.
It means joining Wish, Princess and Charlie, who have left earlier than you have.
It means being fondly remembered and loved by me and chelle for the rest of our lives :)

May you rest in Peace, my little Bearie :)
Thanks for being part of my life. I love you.

2006-07-12T18:39:00.000-07:00

As requested by Maria, here goes... =)

Went shopping with my bestie when I was released from prison last week.
I'm sure you all know how I'm totally addicted to shopping, but shopping sprees with besties are the ultimates.

Well, we didn't exactly go to the most "hip" places, but it was fun and fruitful nonetheless.
Ok, I do actually have a confession to make.
We went to Chinatown.
If you're thinking it's 2 obasans at work, then u're wrong!
We totally rocked Chinatown. Or at least, I choose to believe so :)

Not to mention that the day before, we checked Marina Square out!
We were lucky enough to bump head on with Zara's Mid-year sale, so we shopped to our hearts' content.
Maria bought this yellow stripey shorts that I still can't come to terms with.
Haha.. but as long as she likes it, guess it's fine. Haha...
I bought a cream-coloured Zara top with puffy sleeves. A good buy, I must say.

Maria, I'm done. =x
Haha.

2006-07-11T18:44:00.000-07:00

Today was the first day of school for me.
Received my Mid-yr exam results.

Comments?
Well... I generally did better than in Blocks and that's actually something worth being happy about.
But, it seems that better is never good enough.
And it's so very true.
Better grades won't get me anywhere, but Best grades can get me to University.

As of now, it's kind of pointless lamenting about the countless "shoulds" and "what-ifs".
If anything, it's prolly time to start on revision, again!
It's realism setting in here, cos' casting self-denial aside, there is strictly 9 weeks left to Prelims.
Everything's coming so fast, it's sweeping me off my feet.
But this time, it's hardly prince charming.
For a change, it's A'Levels.

2006-07-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

World Cup Champions: ITALY:)

I was half expecting France to win, but lady luck was on Italy's side, so just as well.
Plus, Zidane committed a huge mistake by violently heading an Italian player's ribs. Needless to say, he was issued a red card and was gone slightly after half-time.
I have a feeling that if Zidane had stayed on, the outcome would prolly be different.
And I can't deny that I was genuinely disappointed in him.

Anyway, I had a bunch of my girlfriends over to watch soccer yesterday.
It was kind of fun catching up with one another, and indulging in love scenes in random serials like Meteor Garden, which I must mention is so totally primary-school-ish. Haha.

I've always been an early-sleeper by habit, but their random spurts of screams and gasps kept me largely awake during the match. Haha... guess I'm thankful for that :)

I am zombified.
Going off to bed. Cya.

2006-07-08T10:51:00.000-07:00

Gosh... I've been indulging in more shopping than I've ever done in this entire year.
I really, really, really love shopping :)

Went to ICON yesterday and bought a lovely brown crop top with lacey dark brown trimmings.
Woo... love it :)
The best thing was that it was on 40% off and the salesperson who served me was super hilarious. Made the buy very worthwhile altogether.

Went to Fish & Co. for dinner with Maria and Gab after that. It was his 16th Birthday yesterday.
Hey kuku head, Happy 16th Birthday yesterday!

Kind of excited now. Going to meet Maria later to go shopping (again) at Marina Square.
And we're going to watch her friends play in a Tennis Open @Kallang!
Can't wait!
Blog tonight :)

2006-07-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Carol!
You're 18 and old, just like me :)

Anyway, I woke up at 3am this morning to watch Portugal play against France.
Score: 1-0, up to France.

I thought that the game was quite well-played on Portugal's part, but the ref appeared awfully biased, especially the part when he allowed France a free kick right infront of the goalpost.
That sealed the game off with a 1-o.
And it's not even a glorious goal; it's a free kick.
And I was telling Melan that I have a sudden realisation, Ribery looks like a pirate-turned-soccer-player.

I think I officially owe weishun a Starbucks Frappaccino. haha.

This means that for Finals, it will be France VS Italy.
Ok, this sounds a lot less exciting than I expected it to be.
A part of me is wishing that it's like "Germany VS Brazil" or something. Tsk.

Well, I'm still thinking if I want to get that black ROXY tote I saw yesterday.
I like the size and the design, but it costs a whopping 8obucks.
So I'm going to have to re-consider purchasing it.

2006-07-05T22:22:00.000-07:00

Confessions of a Shopaholic:
Retail therapy has never worked better on me :)
Needless to say, therapy sessions will resume tomorrow and for the many days to come :)

Next up:
Portugal VS France (3am)

My bet: 1-0, up to POR
(*betting on the opposite of whatever weishun's set his eyes on :p)

2006-07-04T14:01:00.000-07:00

Guess what?
Tomorrow's Econs paper will be my last, last, last, last, last paper!!!
I can't wait, seriously.
The mere thought of the long-awaited 5-day holiday excites me.

But strangely enough, my list of "Things-to-do-after-exams" seems to be shrinking by the day.
I wonder why?

But I suppose shopping, shopping, shopping and more of it should do the job.
For those who still have papers, study hard and good luck! :)

2006-07-03T16:15:00.000-07:00

Today's Oprah Winfrey Talkshow was thought-provoking indeed.
It was featuring a Casanova (Eric) and 9 women to whom he was married or engaged to either concurrently or consecutively over a span of half a decade.

Certainly, we cannot rule out the fact that Eric has committed the fallacy of infidelity over and over, but part of the blame lie with the women.
The similarity amongst them was that they were all caught up with wanting to marry a prince charming and lead a life happily ever after. And this weakness, or idealism, was what Eric preyed upon.

Oprah said something that made me thinking a lot.
She said that "Prince charmings" are all unrealistic.
Whoever sweeps you off your feet, will sweep you off your life.
And if you think about it, it's so, so true.

I'm kind of glad that I'm enlightened about this now.
But part of me feels a bit sad, cos' there goes my long-time dream of meeting Prince Charming.
Of course, there is none but it doesn't hurt to dream and fantasize, does it?

Oprah also said, that as new-age women, we should lead full lives and not expect men to come into our lives to create the desired fullness because then, it creates a sense of dependence.
Comments, any? Tag me to tell me!

Anyway, I'm kindda excited about having my classmates over to watch World Cup Finals!
Can't wait for Sunday :)
And, I'm officially rooting for Germany!

2006-07-02T19:53:00.000-07:00

Oh man...
I still cannot believe that Brazil is out of World Cup.
Picture this: Dream team; Champions of World Cup.
This is what is Brazil deserves.
Anything but being shoved with elimination in their faces, in the Quarter-finals, not even Semi's.

I think I am going to live in self-delusion for the rest of the matches and still wear the Brazil jersey I intended to wear for the finals.
Or maybe support Germany. Just maybe. Amanda pls do not kill me, haha.

Anyway, I received an email frm my penpal yesterday.
He told me that he didn't do too well for his A'Levels and is obviously (and extremely) devastated. I mean, I can understand why.
Singapore and HK are almost alike in the Academic realms.
Flunking exams major exams is likened to suicide. And the most major exam anyone can prolly sit for is A'Levels.
Yeah... Poor boy. I hope he gets on with life soon.
Samuel, take care of yourself! :)

2006-06-27T11:57:00.000-07:00

Today.
Chem Paper 3.
Felt that it was kind of difficult. So I hoping I'll pass :)

Well, I've been thinking quite a bit of late.
Many thought-provoking issues lately.

世界上最遥远的地方不是天涯海角，而是我在你身边你不知道我爱你。
This was something my chinese teacher told me back in secondary school.
This was a phrase that I never possessed enough mental capacity to fully comprehend.
But now, I think, I do.

It has never been an easy thing to look at you from afar, knowing that we can never go back to how we were before, that she presence casts an eternal shadow that separates us.

It has never been an easy thing to be by your side knowing that your world and your very thoughts revolve around her from now. Till forever, it seems.

It never gets better.
But Life goes on.

2006-06-23T15:58:00.000-07:00

You know, that perfect guy I dreamt of, it MUST have been Kaka:)

Guess what? I think Brazilian soccer players are so HOT :)

2006-06-21T08:28:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I tell you!
I had the MOST PERFECT dream from last night to this morning...

As much as I can recall, it was a pretty long dream and prolly not in Singapore context cos I remembered seeing Bangkok or somewhere along that line...

I dreamt of this guy whose name I prolly don't know (or can't remember) but was of mixed heritage. He looked pretty much like an Eurasian, tall, sharp features and brown hair and eyes as well. He had a pretty good built too... Tall.. maybe 1.8+? Haha... Re-kindling my fetish for tall guys... =p Anyway, here's how the dream went...

There was a scene when we it was after a formal dinner and he asked if I wanted to go shopping. And he said that he was willing to walk around with me until I found something I like and he'll pay for me! I mean, I'm not being greedy over here, but it was really sweet to offer to pay for something, even though I might not accept it, but knowing that he had such intentions is good enough, really.
Haha... Gosh, he has the top 2 qualities that are missing in like 90% of Singaporean guys.

There was another scene when we had to cross a bridge without railings (I presumed it was not fully built though I don't know why, my dream didn't tell me!) and yeah, I was pretty afraid of heights (the dreamy me was scared of heights, like the real-life me! amazing...) and it's like, we were already one quarter way on the bridge, and had another three quarter to go before we reached the other end. Then, being the oh-so-gentlemanly him, he told me to hold on to him and he put his hands around my shoulders to make sure I didn't fall! Aww.. so sweet right! :):)

Then there was another bridge (any clues why there are so many bridges in my dream?) we had to cross, and this brige was prolly like 500m long, and slippery-looking and required us to slide down it (like those we have in 'Wet and Wild'). But it was very dangerous looking, cos' it was just a straight piece of plank and people could fall off it anytime. Anyway, I told him that I was kind of afraid to slide down it (d-uh, it was so dangerous looking!) and he offered to go on it first, and I could meet him at the other side... I was so dumb, why didn't I stop him, I mean, that dangerous sliding thingy could have killed him! Haha... anyway, he didn't die, cos' I still saw him after that. But, he was so thoughtful to offer to go before me cos he knew I was scared. And, he didn't sneer at me for being so mousey about everything, but offered assurance instead! Haha.. so sweet...

Another scene I remembered was that my brother (of, the dreamy me actually had a brother... have i been dreaming of having a bro too much?) and my little sister were caught (for some unknown reason) and were put to boys' and girls' homes respectively. He offered to accompany me to visit them, just in case I became emotionally unstable. He said it will be more comforting having another person around and he wanted that person to be him... He surprised me with gifts for my brother and sister and I thought that was really sweet of him cos' he actually took the initiative to look into issues that I had overlooked! Now, that's the 3rd quality that's prolly missing in half the Singaporean guys. Haha...

The sad thing is, I can't remember my entire dream. (hate the way memories of dreams slip away so quickly, esp those of good dreams.. grr)
I will blog more when I recall, though unlikely...
How I wish it was not a dream!

2006-06-18T18:18:00.000-07:00

Wootz... just done painting my toe nails.

Painting nails is quite a good way to de-stress, really.
Considering that there's exactly one week left to mid-yrs and I can feel the stress accumulating. yeah baby.

The only bad thing is that my neck's aching like crazy. And I mean CRAZY.

It feels like I've just tied a string to a sack of rice and hurled it around my neck.

`Freshly duped by an emasculated asshole.

2006-06-17T17:39:00.000-07:00

The new MP3 player I purchased online for $115.

Haha.. this has got to be the nastiest shock my Dad's gotten amongst all of the other Fathers' Days.

Anyway, Dad, Happy Fathers' Day! :)

2006-06-16T21:46:00.000-07:00

I hear...
Thrilled exclamations from my neighbour, going "GOAL... GOAL!"
And wonder whether if it was Brazil, Italy or Tridad and Tobago they were supporting.

I hear...
Sounds of fireworks being set off for National Day preparation.
And wonder if I'll be studying Chemistry or Econs during the NDP procession.

For now, my eyes are meant for books and notes only. And nothing else.
There's a saying that goes... Knowledge is power.
But its power is so overwhelming, the process of the acquisition of knowlege is suffocating me.

2006-06-15T16:25:00.000-07:00

The World Cup sure brings back memories and much emotions.
For me, at least.
I was just telling my bestie that it's been 4 yrs since.

It's not easy to imagine ourselves as 14-year-old geeky teenagers taking our streaming exams anymore.

Afterall, we're now young, mildly-cool, occasionally-clubbing 18-year-olds harbouring different dreams and ambitions, and not to mention, different standards and expectations of our other-halves. Looking back, I wonder in awe how far we've trodded down the path of life from then.

And, I'll wonder if I could have lived my life any more differently.
If I had taken seriously anything anyone said to me.
If I had taken seriously what he said to me that night Brazil played against whoever in the finals.

Then again, I'm only reminiscing.
It doesn't mean that I'm still expecting anything from him.
Though sometimes I wish we were still talking.

No more wishings for the past, it wasn't meant to be.
It didn't seem to last, so I had to set him free.

2006-06-11T16:26:00.000-07:00

The rain's been at it for hours... since morning, I think?
But guess I don't really mind having the temperature lingering around 25, 26-ish, giving me false illusions of being in a temperate country. Hong Kong, maybe? :)

Anyway, I was blog-browsing awhile ago... And I read Lester's tag board which led me to a J1 class's forum. Haha.. the girls are like head-over-heels over some of the 29SC Exco members. Haha.. kind of funny. Crushes and more of it.

Btw, does anyone have any idea how I can shop online at old navy and gap then ship the stuff over? if you do, let me know:)

2006-06-10T14:18:00.000-07:00

Gosh, I'm darn pissed!
So, just allow me to let it out lest I die.

Now, where shall I start...
Ok, I'm extremely unhappy with the fact that my sis has (undeliberately) tricked me into going out with her on such a beautiful Saturday afternoon and then standing me up. Considering the fact that I had even bothered to dress up, thinking that I'll be spending my afternoon shopping in Orchard and indulging in all the oh-so-tempting Great Singapore Sales when in actual fact, all I did was to go to HG mall, had lunch and get my faulty tennis shoes changed into another pair that are unappealing to my eyes (hate white shoes!).

Well, we were supposed to go to Orchard after changing my shoes, but after we did, (it was already 1.30pm) my sis decided that it would be pointless for me to go since she arranged to meet ps at 3.30pm and prolly have to leave 10mins earlier. If I went, the max. shopping time I'll get to shop with her would be an hour before I make my way back.
And yeah, it's true. I'm just maddened by the fact that my sis has such terrible time management, and is so disorganised and disorientated that didn't know she was meeting ps until we were halfway to HG mall, which left me with nothing very much to do to salvage the situation. I know how bad this sounds but I feel like some sacrficial element after being stood up by this very person whom I call my sister.

So much for a Saturday shopping spree at Orchard, thanks. And I wonder how I allowed myself to end up shopping in some Value shops in HG mall.
The next time you propose to go on another Saturday shopping spree, I will remember to think twice, or maybe trice.
And, thanks for granting me the rest of the beautiful Saturday afternoon, staying at home studying Chemistry.

2006-06-09T19:15:00.000-07:00

It's been consistently raining for the past few mornings. And it irritates me quite a bit cos' I had every intention to play tennis in school in the past few mornings to work my rusty bones out, but needless to day, the rain foiled my plans over and over. Oh wells, just my luck.

Maybe, just maybe, this is a major hint for me to keep my mind off other things. Including tennis.

Anyway, the Great Singapore Sale seems to be at its peak and everytime my Dad/Mom/Sis comes home, they never fail to come back with something in hand, something they bought from the sale. Wish I could do that!

Amanda and I were lamenting about how cheap some things were after the discount and were even mildly tempted to sneak off to J8 for a short shopping spree to get some shoes and bags. But yeah, we didn't.
Suddenly, Vectors seemed alot more interesting.

That aside, here are some pictures of my adorable bunny.

[Some facts]
Name: Biskett
Age: 5 months old
Weight: 750g

2006-06-08T11:06:00.000-07:00

I was having breakfast in the kitchen this morning when my Dad walked in.
Here's how the conversation went:

Dad: Yan (tts what my Dad calls me at home), going to school today?
Yan: Yup. *hopeful
(I was totally expecting my Dad to be the kind old soul and be so sweet as to offer me a lift to school, considering how I've been working so hard recently and it's kind of on the way from Mom's workplace.)
Dad: Okay. Study hard.
Me: Yup. Anything else, Dad? *still hopeful
Dad: Yeah, remember to switch off the lights.
(I fainted)

My latest realisation: Yizhen has the exact blogskin too! Sorry yz :P

A random pic I found...

A pic of the IJ Tennis girls, past and present :)
Taken during the B' Division Tennis Nationals 2006, during which IJ beat MG to emerge as champions.
It really is quite heart warming to re-live the experience, afterall, tennis used to be something I held very close to my heart :)

2006-06-07T20:51:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, I've gotten myself a brand new blogskin.
It's really nice, isn't it?
Wells... figured that my previous one was so old, it's gathering cobwebs so I thought I should change it already :)

To the NY peeps going to Perth for the Geography Field Trip tomorrow,
Bon Voyage!
I want lots of chocolates, ok! :)

2006-06-05T20:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm... was randomly woken up by my sis at 4am today.
Not that I mind, but I was genuinely surprised to see her reading through my blog. I mean, she usually doesn't bother. But I guess it's a good sign that she's gradually gaining interest in my life (or blog, either way it's still goodd =p)

When I was more sober, she randomly asked if I talk about her on my blog at all.
And it suddenly struck me that I hardly ever do, since I normally blog about my school life and she's almost never involved in it.
Haha... From now, I will remember to mention about my sis in my blog, even if it's just a small paragraph, or a phrase. It's the thought that counts.
And with such a brilliant sis, I don't see why I will run out of things to blog about her. *hope nobody's head is bloating* :)

A candid pic of my sis:

Well, my mom has been feeling rather unwell lately.
Nobody has ever outrightly mentioned, but we all know that the stress at work and extensive working hours have been taking their toll on her health.
Anyway, she was feeling extremely unwell today, so my sis and I took it upon ourselves a whip up a meal (and that would be dinner).
It was quite fun cooking with my sis (though I'll be cooking most of the time while she usually watches from 1m away for fear that oil will splatter on her =p)
We ended up preparing 3 dishes: steamed egg with beancurd, fish soup with ginger slices and ikan bilis in sambal.

Our limited culinary skills allowed us to prepare only simple dishes, but it was a sumptuous dinner nonetheless.
My mom used to joke about how once a girl possessed sufficient skills to whips up a meal for the family, she's almost ready for marriage. My sis... and I... marriage? I figured that that will be a rather long wait away :)

2006-06-04T00:15:00.000-07:00

Today was Aesthetico's Farewell Dinner.

Finally, here comes. We are really stepping down (I mean, we already have, but we just cannot help living in self-denial sometimes.)

Haha... Aesthet dinner was really fun today. We went to "The Western Restaurant" located at L1 of Cineleisure.

The ambience was good albeit a bit stuffy. But we still enjoyed ourselves nonetheless.
It's a good feeling sitting around and recollecting with some 28th, who have braved the storms with me through my council term. It's also been fun catching up with the 29th, finding out what has been happening thus far and lending a listening ear to problems and offering appropriate advice.

But, but... I still cannot forgive the 29th for tricking us after dinner today! (though it genuinely was a plot well-planned and well executed =p)

Here's what happened...

After dinner, the 29th gradually left their seats, one after another at irregular intervals. It started with Ken Han having to leave early to meet his parents. Being too occupied with the latest gossips and more catching up, the 28th paid little attention to our gradually disappearing juniors. Until we realised that all was left were only the 28th. And our unpaid bill.

It so happened that at that exact moment, the waitress approached our table with a bill amounting up to $268++, and said in a persistent and firm tone that we had to foot our bill immediately.

It certainly didn't help that we were all close to peniless and none of the 29th (or so we thought) were around to help us settle the bill (since farewell dinners have always been a junior-to-senior treat).

So, with a stern waitress (and the store manager) staring straight at us and expecting an immediate payment, worry drove us hysterical. Candice was so flustered, she was ready to run down to the ATM to withdraw money to foot the bill.

Yeah, and it turned out that we were duped by our juniors, who were in absolute cahoots with the waitress and the store manager.
It felt like we've all been on GOTCHA!!!

Haha... It was a very fun dinner, really. I enjoyed myself very much.
29th Aesthet, thanks for the dinner and that pleasant surprise :)

2006-06-01T16:36:00.000-07:00

Aha! S10A's tennis-playing day tomorrow... *excited :)

Well, went to my "favourite hangout" (no prizes for guessing the correct answers.. haha) again today. To settle the entire drama that was created out of my faulty tennis shoes.

Anyway, the manager has finally come out of his "meeting", gave me a call and agreed to let me change my shoe, with no conditions attached.
Now, at least THAT'S a reasonable answer. Accepted.

Even though all the staff in the shop's prolly cursing me over and over, I'm glad I've finally put a full-stop to all this tennis shoe sequal.

Lesson learnt: Be observant when buying shoes next time. Most importantly, make sure the sole is even :)

Was flipping through my organiser just now and I came across the page dated 5th Jan 2006, which I believe is the 3rd day of Orientation 1, where the day was spent @Sentosa.

There, it was written:

Quote of the day: "Ahh... I smell a dog..."
*vanessa and amanda see isaac (not issac, get it?) charging beside us (written by amanda)

Kind of funny actually. Haha... It's like, I genuinely smelt a dog that day, that typical stench.
But it so happened tt isaac was like beside us and he thought we called him dog.
And he kicked sand into my face, which wasn't the most polite of him but nevermind. Haha.
Amanda and I laughed about it all the way until end of O1.

Missing those carefree days.

2006-05-30T21:28:00.000-07:00

A boring day, I must say.
Spent half the day in school, attending revision lects in the morning, then studying until 5pm in the Library...

Kind of upset with differentiation. It's like...I kind of know it, but I kind of don't.
So easy yet so difficult.
I'm left with the last 2 exercises in theTYS and I'm going to complete it by today. That's a promise to myself.

Been having pretty bad moodswings of late. And random outbursts too.
Could be menopause =x.

And it's kind of upsetting that I keep knocking cups of drinks off by accident. And today, I did it for the 100th time. If there's a nickname I should have, it will prolly be klutz.

Not exactly looking forward to tomorrow either. A long and boring day.
That's something I should get used to, since the days to come are all anticipated to be likened to tomorrow.

Oh wells.

Sad life of a JC2.

And, that manager has yet to call me back. Tsk.
I'm off to email Wee See... bye peeps.

2006-05-29T19:59:00.000-07:00

I tell you... I can hardly contain my anger!

Here's what exactly happened...
After the Nanyang Open, I decided that my passion for Tennis might be back so I decided that it was time to ride on the tides of the Great Singapore Sale and buy a pair of tennis shoes, since my old pair was worn out (and almost caused me to slip to death) and I felt that I was going to continue playing casual tennis anyway.

Went to HG Mall for dinner last night with my Mom and decided that I would pop by SPORTSLINK and see if there were any Tennis shoes that I would prolly like.
Fortunately (or not so fortunate afterall), I spotted a pair of Tennis shoes that were quite desirable to my eyes and was rather cheap after a 15% discount. Then, I bought it. Went home, walked around my garden this morning and realised that it was faulty.

It's not the normal fault... Nt like a piece of nylon thread was peeking out from the seams.. The sole of one of the shoe was uneven. It's uneven!!! Can you imagine, what if I wore those shoes and fell down and died? (ok, maybe I'm exaggerating... but we can never avoid 'what ifs')

So, I decided to go back to SPORTSLINK (at the expense of my studying time), to change those faulty shoes. Amanda, Mel and Gouyue decided to go with me and visit HELEN's at the same time. Here's the conversation I had with that salesman with seh ngor teeth (*screams turnoff!)

Me: Hi, I bought a pair of faulty Adidas tennis shoe and would like to change it.
Salesman: Oh... (opens the box and inspects the shoe)
(Continues inspecting the shoe for 10 minutes)
Salesman: Have you worn this shoes out?
Me: Nope. I didn't. (as-a-matter-of-factly)
Salesman: There are some stones and dirt in the shoe. Are you sure you didn't wear it out?
Me: NOPE, I DIDN'T.
Salesman: But there are stones and dirt.
Me: I wore it into MY GARDEN. I have to wear it somewhere and test it out before knowing if it is faulty right.
Salesman: But it's outside already.
Me: It's MY GARDEN. It's within MY HOUSE.
(He looks around for help but to no avail. All 4 of us continued glaring at him as he left to approach the Adidas rack, where a sample of my shoe was. And returned another 10 minutes later.)
Salesman: I can't decide whether to change for you. I need my manager to decide. I have no authority.
Me: Oh. Where is your manager?
Salesman: He's... he's in a meeting.
(Oh, I so believe. I must either be blind, or 3-year-old or just plain dumb.)
Me: Oh, isit.
Salesman: Yeah. Actually, it's not a very big problem. This shoe is made like that. The design is meant to be tilted. Anyway, it's just that the base is uneven, it's not like the whole front part of your shoe dropped off.
Me: Ohhh... (anger rising...)
Me: So, are you telling me that it doesn't matter that my shoe is faulty and when I wear it it's uncomfortable. Is that a very small problem to you?
Me: In ANY CASE, if you are able to change the shoes for me, you can't sell this pair of faulty shoes away. So does it matter if I've worn it or not? (I thought I made perfect sense, really.)
Salesman is dumb-founded.
Me: I tell you, when I pay the price for a pair of Adidas shoe, I'm paying for the reputation and the comfort, so I'm going to make sure I get what I pay for. Because I deserve it.
Salesman is still dumb-founded.
When he found his tongue...
Salesman: I need my manager to decide. He need so come down to inspect the shoes.
Me: So, when can all this be finalised. I don't have all the time in the world to spare. I'm having my EXAMS, mind you. (finally reached the peak of my anger)
Salesman: It's either Wed or Thursday.
Me: Ok, please finalise it. And get your manager to call me because I'm extremely busy.
Salesman: Ok. Please leave your contact no.
(Rolls my eyes and left my contact no.)
Me: Just to let you know, I'm very dissatisfied with your service and I were meaner, I would have asked for your name and lodged a complaint.

And we stormed out of that shop.
That stupied SEH NGOR totally made my day. Really.

2006-05-28T13:16:00.000-07:00

[a part of me I recently parted with]

What a day!
Haha... It's quite a gloomy day... It's been raining for as long as I can remember...

To make things worse, I'm down with a perpetual cold. I seemed to have caught it yesterday morning and dozes of Clarinase appear to be useless now. I wonder if the human body can actually grow immune to cold medicine, since I've been having loads of them, considering that I'm pretty prone to colds recently.

People say it's due to a lack of Vitamin C in my diet, but I've been faithfully eating oranges so I don't see why it keeps coming back! =x

Anyway, have been feeling rather forlorn and maybe melancholic lately.
This is what stress and fear and small doses of Mr. Kwek's pep talks does to me.

I know that Mid-years is nearing and I know I've got to get started with revision. Soon.

There's so much to do, yet so little time to spare.
There's so much I wish I could do, but so little brain capacity possessed.
There's so much I can dream of, yet reality limits me to textbooks only.
There's so much I know I'm capable of, but so little motivation to realise it.

2006-05-26T21:42:00.000-07:00

Watched the Nanyang Open finals for Mens' Doubles this evening. It was quite an eyeful watching both parties returning shots to each other.

A mild neck ache was a result of that but it was still a match worth watching nonetheless.

The final match was Mr. Loo & Mr. Leong vs Lucius & friend.

I must say that I'm pretty impressed by Mr. Loo's serving poweress. It's prolly no less than 100km/h.

I think Lucius played a fairly good game too. A fair play of long shots, volleys, lobs and consistent returns. Sandar says he's got 9 years of experience playing tennis and it truly showed yesterday. Hope he isn't too sad abt losing no more.

2006-05-23T21:02:00.002-07:00

Memories that Linger...

2006-05-22T23:15:00.000-07:00

A Tribute to my Dearest 28th

Without a doubt, I will say that my fellow council mates have played a very crucial role in my council term.
When normal school days seemed dull, they made my day.
They taught me the importance of camaraderie and how to love without condition.
If anything, they taught me the true meaning of friendship.

When I needed someone to talk to, they never failed to be potential candidates who would sit beside me in quiet understanding.
In times of diffuculty, they made me realise that packing up and leaving did not put an end to problems.
They showed me that they were willing to brave strong winds and conquer the tides with me and that in times of need, I will never be alone.

I wish our council term never came to an end.
In case it does, 28th, thanks for leaving footprints in my life :)

2006-05-22T22:50:00.000-07:00

Just came back not too long ago frm dinner with some 28th.

Our last supper.

It's not like we're going to be sent off to the gallows tomorrow, but it's just that it's the last dinner we had together with the reputation of being current councillors.

I know how wrong this is, but I can't help feeling dejected and mildly angry;
I feel that after tomorrow, we'll all become history;

Useless, out-dated and unwanted.

I guess only time can neutralise such negative feelings.
So i'll let time do its job.

As for now... here's wishing the 29th all the best in everything!
May ur council term be a fruitful and colourful one :)

2006-05-21T18:37:00.000-07:00

For some very strange and unknown reasons, I've been very bad tempered of late...
I know I shouldn't be, cos' it affects everyone around me but a lot of times, such things are easier said then done.

Nadz did tell me not too long ago that my mood is likened to a pendulum.
And I'm afraid to say that it's extremely true. Gosh.
I'm already 18 and should be way beyond the temperemental and emotional puberty age.

God knows what's happening within me, really.

Anyway, was really upset to know that the maid, who has newly arrived, has marked her first achievement in the household by losing my favourite white skirt.

Bravo.

Was pretty affected the entire day but guess I'm better now.
It was really sweet of my sis to offer to pay for an exact same skirt but I'm not sure I should buy another of the same skirt, though I really like it.
-thinks twice-

My family and I went out for a half-day tour at Little India.
We had lunch at Ghandis' Restaurant, which offered relatively good ambience for a Sunday family lunch.
We went to Mohamed Mustafa for a 2-hour shopping trip. It seems that my mom has been hit by the "CROCS-bug" and it's like wherever she goes, she's frantically searching for Crocs of all colours. Not to mention that she requested for her Mothers' Day pressie to be a pair of cream coloured Crocs. My mom is really funny sometimes =D

2006-05-21T01:08:00.000-07:00

Council girls' very first successful air stunt :)

2006-05-20T10:11:00.000-07:00

A picture of Dedy during College Day last year :)

Today's NY College Day. Coolios.
Time really flies...
I remember the 28th Elects (that's us!) doing College Day ushering a year ago...

How we were amateurs and how we looked up to our seniors for being so professional.
And how we got pumped on the event day itself (since College Day was in the midst of our precamp then) but enjoyed every pumping bit because with each pumping we did, there was a rush of adrenaline in our bloods, a deep sense of camaraderie and a feeling of reassurance that the 28th had our hearts as one.

So when some random 29th used to come to me to tell me how tough they thought their SC Camp was, I used to wonder how they would survive through ours, say if they were born a year earlier, came to NY and still bent on joining SC.

Well... we're seniors now and it it seems too fast. Not to mention that we're going to step down in approximately 3 days' time. Sad stuff so i'll spare u the details.
Anyway, today's my Dad's birthday, so we're going our for family dinner tonight. excited :)

2006-05-18T19:50:00.000-07:00

It's really cool that NY actually has a "Nanyang Open".
And and...
I signed up for mixed doubles, together with Cz.
Feeling kind of excited, even though it starts only on Monday.
It's been awhile since I last touched my tennis racquet :)

Missing my tennis days...

2006-05-16T20:26:00.000-07:00

Today's quite a slack day for me.
Had 2 lectures, 1 pract and a maths test. Ended at 315.

The maths test I had today was relatively tough... Everyone who had already done it said so. But I guess the test was slightly easier than what I heard of it to be. So, in a way, it's a consolation. But I left 2 parts of 2 questions blank and im praying hard tt i won't fail.
Have a gut feel that I won't... But I will NOT let complacency take over.

Anyways, I ponned maths remedial for college day rehearsal. Quite a big sacrifice, I must say. Even though maths remedials aren't the most fun lessons on earth, Mr Tham's weird sense of humour makes it up most of the time. So i kind of like remedials.

I went for rehearsals, expecting to be ushering some VIPs. But when the teacher reached me, she told me that we had run out of VIPs to usher and said that I could stand-by at the reception area and prepare coffee or tea. And i swear i could have died on the spot.

Anyway, in the very end, i still got my very own VIP to usher. So I'm happy :). for now.

Volleyball finals for the girls tmr! Good luck babes!

Some fetishes are meant to come and go.
The earlier they are done away with, the better.

2006-05-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

P.Ubin: where our journey started...
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PingQi: I hope 22nd may is the end of the world.

And you know what... I so wish that too.

I know how useless this makes me sound, but I SAY I DON'T CARE.

I received a council relay frm wei jun at 2.33am this morning and it said:
"Relay: 28th, pls empty sc room of all ur stuff. Time to hand the room over. Sc room will no longer be ours on monday. Laptop will also be cleared and all these to be settled by Friday."

And I cried.

2006-05-13T21:21:00.000-07:00

Just came back from PS some time ago.

Went to watch MI:3 with Sandar, CZ, Swee and Choy. Junz and huimin stood us up! Haha.. But it was still fun anyway! MI:3 wasn't too bad, but a teeny bit too action-packed for comfort. I told Sandar tt the action was too fast for my eyeballs and I could feel an impending headache and she agreed!

After movie, we went on a mini shopping spree!!! (yeah, of course we bored the guys to death)
There's a relatively newly opened shop called "Outfitters girls" in B1 of PS. Kind of like the clothes there so I bought a black, graphic tee that says:

CUTE

SINGLE

RICH

I'll take any 2 of the 3 above (:

And choy couldn't help but agree that it's sooo my type of shirt! Haha!

Anyway, I think I'll go back again if time permits.

Shopping heals the mind and the soul, believe it =p

Well... we met the 29th CCACo after that and apparently, they were shopping around for gifts for seniors. Hmm... Seeing them brings back memories. I remember the time 27th+28th Aesthet had dinner and it seemed nt too long ago. Wellwell... time to move on now...

And here's a sudden realisation: 10 days to Student Council Invest.

*sobs*

But CZ's right... If good things don't end, then they aren't considered good anymore.

Too much of something isn't always good.